Monday, March 29, 2010


has been an interesting day. I've often felt like crying, and for no reason. I think stress from life/school/children is getting to me. For anyone who doesn't know, I have a full time job, another job where I get called as needed, and am going to school part-time.

Bigblock doesn't help around the house, as a matter of fact I was mad at him for most of last week because on top of everything else I was also taking the garbage out! He works 8 hours a day, and the rest of his day consists of laying at the end of the bed watching TV and napping! Aaarrrgggghhhh So now he takes out the garbage but nothing else, oh wait, he does do his own work clothes laundry, and goes to the store once a week with me. (Big help, right?)

Thing 1 and Thing 2 are worrying me now for various reasons that I really don't want to go into right now....soon, I hope.

Also, do you ever have days when you're just tired? I don't mean physically tired, but just tired of the whole business of life? It seems like some people push this ole world around, and some people are only along for the ride. I'M TIRED OF PUSHING!! I realize that I have a good life, and there are others who have it so much worse than I do. I don't know about you, but life doesn't seem to get any easier. Life is NOT fair, I realized this a long time ago. I have faith in my God, and try to be a bigger person than the one who abuses the system. But, that doesn't mean sometimes I'm not just at the end of my rope. I'm still holding on though!

Ok, off my soapbox. I've been thinking about the years when I was growing up, and I've got some stories to tell you, but not tonight. You'll just have to come back again and see if I've posted them yet HaHa!!

Thankfully the weather is turning nice, can't wait for the sunshine and warm temps! Now, how are YOU doing? What's happening in YOUR life? I really want to get to know you too. Leave me a comment and tell me something about yourself, or just ask me a question, any question. (do you see her shamelessly begging for comments, Ha)
Goodnight all,

P.S. Thanks everyone for asking I have been sleeping fine, and thankfully no more bad dreams. I do occasionally think about my nightmare, but less often and hopefully I have it in better perspective and realize it was just a bad, bad dream.

Monday, March 1, 2010

I Had a Dream.....

Before I get started, I wanted to recognize all my followers. I never expected to really have anyone reading my ramblings, but apparently there are a few that THANK YOU! Make yourself at home...

Now for my title...I went to bed last night about 11 p.m. I've been feeling pretty good about things lately, we are getting more sunshine, the birds are singing in the morning when I walk out, temps are ever so slowly inching up, so nothing really bothering me. Anyways I woke up at 2 a.m., and for the life of me I could not lay there any longer. I had a HORRIBLE dream, well probably best to call a spade a spade, it was a nightmare!!! I recognized some of the people in this awful dream, others I did not. I was in a place I know I've never been before. It almost felt like I knew what was going to happen even before it occurred. But still as the dream unfolded I was horrified! I usually don't experience these things often. Most mornings I wake up, and never remember dreaming at all. However, this one has stayed with me all day. I am unsettled to say the least. I realize that it was just a bad dream, and will more than likely never come to pass, oh how I pray!

Have you ever experienced something like this just so awful, and you just can't put it out of your mind. I know I am probably not making alot of sense, but I am really unsettled by it, and I dread going to sleep tonight. Please leave me your thoughts. Do you think that we have premonition of things to come in dreams so that when they do happen, that we are more able to handle them? Or is it just something that happens with no rhyme or reason?